even though saving you sends me to heaven.

Sunday, September 21, 2008

Finally went for my swimming class
and got to look at Zen topless again.

He's so damn hot!!
I just wanna hug and kiss him till he faints
he's so muscular
and his shoulders and chest
is so strong.

If only I can have a cute boyfriend like him..
it would be so amazing!
Will he come save me soon?

at 4:52 PM

Friday, September 19, 2008

Rollercoaster ride..

HAVING CRUSHES ON SO MANY BOYS
Damn it, I am so scandalous..
My gaydar is not functioning
or rather malfunctioning..
which leaves me with no instinct at all.

Just don't think there are any other gay students
in my school..
or just that I cannot sense them.

There are a few cute guys whom
I fancy..
well its just rather impossible for me to find someone
who understands my situation now.
Or bothers to try at all.

at 4:25 AM

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Feeling tired..
not like its the first day but,
overall exhausted.

I feel sorry now,
sorry for things I said.
Or rather, thought..
Zen, if you are listening,
if you know I am refering to you,
if somehow you came to see this blog,

I am sorry..
for thinking that you didn't care
for thinking that you are like everyone else
for saying that you are a bastard.

Thanks for chatting with me yesterday
thank you so much..

Indeed, the simplest of gestures can save a life

Just wanna tell you
that what you have done for me
despite how irritating I was
you showed me that not everyone is ignorant.

There are people who do not judge
who do not care whether you are straight, gay, or whatever
who see who you are, not what you are.

Out of the 6 billion people in this world
I will be eternally grateful of your presence in my life..

Thanks buddy:]

at 1:26 AM